I cant believe I left him there again! I didnt mean to, I just, I had no real choice. I dont love him, and it kills me everyday that I CANT I love him. I dont want to leave him. He's a phsyco in love with someone who doesnt want him back. Dayton Bridgard. The only person I have ever had any trouble with leaving there. I left him, and walked away, yeah, fine, no prob. but, hes just different. his long spikey mohecan that falls to one side gvin the illusion of long hair on one side and bald on the other. I have feelings for him, but not love, thats for sure. theres a fine line between love and hate you know. and Dayton is standing right on that line.

xox

okay, heres where you tell me what you top ten 'whatevers' are! you dont need ten, just 5 will do. (number one in your list is the best)

1)your top ten anthems of the time you have been alive.

2)top ten fave animals.

3)top ten fave bands.

4)top ten fave foods.

5)top ten fave drinks.

and thats all I can think of...

mine are:

TOP TEN ANTHEMS OF THE TIME IVE BEEN ALIVE:
10)Another brick in the wall.
9)Rollin'.
8)Jump around.
7)bat out of hell.
6)fun luvin' criminals.
5)summer of 69.
4)United states of whatever.
3)werewovles in london (ahwooo).
2)piano man.
1)rockstar.

TOP TEN FAVE ANIMALS:
10)Rabbit
9)dog
8)guinea pig
7)goat
6)gecko
5)snake
4)newt
3)frog
2)spider
1)kinkajou

TOP TEN FAVE BANDS:
10)rammestein
9)black out crew
8)Judas Preist
7)Rage Against the machine
6)Black Tide
5)Pantera
4)wu tang clan
3)Limp Bizkit
2)Fun Luvin Criminals
1)System Of A Down

nd im just gonna stop there coz I gotta go lol.
but plz answer!!!

xox

okaii...
on the agenda 2day>>>How do you annoy someone without being around them?

well, its fairly simple!
someone being annoying you for a while but dont wanna go near em incase they r suspicious? well, its something that I figured out only a few hours ago when I was walking home from school and this absolute COW was shoutin stuff like "fugly slut" at me n other stuff like that, I had managed to control my mouth for a while...
But today was just IT! I turned and gave her evils then turned back, I was on the phone and was REALLY NOT in the mood to get into an argument with her. Me and Carris and Jenni and Helen all gave her evils at the same time and it had good effect, she immediatley shut up, but when carris and jen went to do a paper round and helen went the other way to go to her house, I was on my own. She chose this time to stand up and shout "who are you scowling at?" I was gonna ignore it, and I would av, I so would av, only she walking towards me, trying to figure out something quick and witty to say back to her like "oh, nothing much...just a lil RAT!" -which I thought of afterwards *doh*- I just shouted "what does it look like im scowling at, eh?" by now she was walking even faster, she was REALLY tall, but she didnt scare me, why should I be scared of her? what power did she have over me? she doesnt av hardly any m8s. nope, I wasnt scared, I wasnt even a tiny bit hesitant. It was a big hill that she had to walk up to get me, so I turned and walked casually away, she stopped following after a while and went back to her four friends.
apparently she had found out that I had been bitching about her WHICH I AVENT!!!
SHE CHATS BULL!!!
GRRRRR!!!!
I h8 ppl who bitch about other ppl!

anyway, this is basically a few plans I'm going to be trying to annoy her whithout having to go ANYWHERE NEAR HER SO I CANT BE ACCUSED OF BITCHING BECAUSE I HAVENT EVEN BEEN AROUND HER!!!
you should try em, they r quite good:
1)Go to some of the places that they normally go at break of dinner, but make sure that you get there first, so they have to go somewhere else.
2)whatever you do, no matter how tempting it is, dont insult them when they insult you, and dont get into a fight with them or anything, just smile and say "okay". ITS REALLY ANNOYING TRYING TO HAVE A FIGHT WITH SOMEONE WHO JUST WILL NOT FIGHT BACK!
3)see it as a game, and the more they insult you, the more you can use it your advantage, dont take anything they say too seriously, and try to backfire their insults on them as much as possible, it will make them look like total fools.
4)Take it all lightly, dont take the insults to heart and just laugh at her saying how pathetic she really is when she says something like that to you, becuase shes trying to annoy you, it will annoy her that your not getting annoyed by her insults and the whole scheme will backfire on her.
5)Have loads of fun with your mates, she will be too wrapped up in bitching about you to have any fun, so when she sees that your having a good time it will really tick her off.

That all I can think of so far, but if you have any more feel free to repost this and add your own story and advice to it!

xox!
XD

This is my latest song...I wrote it, partly because I was bored, and also because I feel like I have been through so much recently (i.e. Robs death, Billy leaving, seeing one of my best friends ruin his life with drugs) I thought I had become ten times stronger as a person...
even if I am slightly fucked up...

THE POTENTIAL TO KILL
Verse 1:
You are the only surviver,
of a plane crash they call non exsistant,
you are the only child,
in a world full of adults,
you are the only killer,
in a room full of preists,
you are the only hater,
in a world full of lovers.

Chorus:
DONT YOU TELL ME YOU ARE LESSER!
dont you fall into their traps.
Coz Ive broken out of kidsize,
and becoming, GODSIZE!
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well, actually, thats all i have lol...but thats all I need, for now...

Message for yo'll!
BECOME GODSIZE!

Kneeling down in a muddy ditch filled with water, with just my head and a bit of my gun poking out...
waiting for the other team...
waiting for them to come at me firing their guns at me, leaving no survivers...
My addrenelin begins to pump...
I can hear enemy fire, closer, closer by the second.
I raise my hand to signal to the rest of my team to go round them through the trees...
once again, i was being used as a de-coy for an attack on the other teams bunker.
Only the predator was in the opposite bunker, perfect opportunity for an attack.
I watched as my team members dissappeared off into the distance leaving me and Kimberley in the ditch, awaiting our fate.
We waited, and waited...
it seemed like hours, but only a few minutes had passed...
By now the other team are close enough that Kimberley and I can hear them breathing...
I jumped up, out of the ditch, covered from head to toe in muddy water, firing like crazy at the other team, with them firing back...
By now I could see the predator creeping up behind them... I held my position, knowing that soon the predator would be in range of them and they would have to hide...
I had been hit twice under the face mask and my teeth and mouth had begun to bleed, I could taste a mixture of blood, paint, and paint grease....
Kimberely popped up, and knowing that the rest of my team were in their bunker, they panicked, surrounded by kimberley, me, the predator, and the rest of my team...
they knew they had been beaten...
"RETREAT OR DIE!!!" I shouted to them...
I ducked down and used my sleeve to wipe away the blood and paint...
"headshots dont even count, the stupid sods! Your alright for another round of shots arent you?" Kimberley shouted to me.
I nodded and re-loaded my gun...
Enemy fire puased...
knowing that this could be a trap,
I stood there, slightley bent over to avoid being seen...
By now bruises had begun to appear over most of my body and I was exhuasted...
Jumping back up and firing blindley into the distance, I realised that the predator was there...
immediatley about 400 bullets of paint flew at me, and I knew why the enemy had stopped and hid...
I ducked, but Kimberley wasnt so lucky...
Five paintballs on her front, and she was out.
One single bullet fired, and about five hundred followed, the predator had gone!
The rest of my team were coming back for me!
I breathed a huge sigh of releif, and just watched as the other team were annialated by my team.
Stevo grabbed me and ran back to our bunker, we had their flag!
GAME OVER---WE WON!!!